Unforgiveable Lust

Nothing's the same as it used to be,
I look around myself and all I can see,
is the sight of new faces every day,
I wonder anymore if it's alright to say,

I need some joy, excitement in this heart,
When will the happiness ever start?
Way back when, it used to be fun,
But that was before the damage was done.

My heart is now black though before it were pink,
I know now I should've never taken that first drink.
It flipped my very life upside down,
My always smiling face had faded to a frown.

I walk the halls of this overrated school,
with the plan of my demise, his favorite tool.
He uses it to wrench deep inside of my soul,
Where there was once a heart, is now a big hole.

He took away the ability for me to ever trust,
All because of one night and that unforgiveable lust.